The next three months will be the busiest time I’ve had since becoming a self-employed person three and a half years ago. It feels good.
When I left the National Health Service it was a bit of a risk. The truth is the time had come for a parting of the ways. I am able now to see clearly that I was no longer good for the NHS after 35 years and the NHS was certainly not good for me.
I had become stale, disillusioned and dull. I still had loads of energy to offer but I felt tired.
I pledged to myself that a return to a 'contract job' on a full time basis on someone else’s payroll would be a defeat for me.
So far I have managed to eat every month for 40 months as a freelancer.
I still feel that the last thing I would ever want to do is return to some office based job in a large organisation.
I love working from home. I love my freedom. I love my self-imposed rules. I love my new accountability.
Let me say some more about this word 'accountability.'
I left surely the most ‘layered’ management structure in UK business in the National Health Service. You would think therefore I would have felt ‘accountable’ in that environment. Not true.
I now realise I am truly ‘accountable’ to the person who knows me best – and that is the person I see in the mirror. That is REAL accountability. Holding yourself to your own standards is a real test.
If I deliver for my customer I look in the mirror and know that I did a good job. If I fall short that guy in the mirror will let me know. The mirror test works for me.
The accountability I now have is like hanging - it concentrates the mind.
To whom are you accountable?